So many first days
Doing the same thing
Write it all down,
Make yourself sweat.
Don’t eat too much.
Get used to hunger.
Say goodbye to sweet.
Eat lentils.
Drink water.
More water.
More water.
Go to bed and do it again
Until it starts to feel normal.
And then something will throw you off course.
And you’ll go back to day one again.
And again.
I have had too many day ones like this.
My stomach gnawing, body aching.
Trying to fit this lifestyle
Into my life.
My kids laughing while I exercise.
Making myself “good” food
And getting nothing else done.
Too many day ones.
Balance feels unattainable.
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